1. How ticklish are you? My feet are kinda, and my back is pretty sensitive, if that counts
2. When did you most recently experience physical numbness? Probably recently when my hand or foot fell asleep
3. What’s caused you recently to squirm? I was watching I, Claudius and it showed a dead cat..show me dead humans, but don't do that to me :( (I had to look away, ugh)
4. What recently caused you to gag? *shrugs*
5. Which item in your wardrobe is most uncomfortable to wear? Tight things that don't fit anymore, for one

I saw the sleep doctor this week, and they said the results from the sleep test showed some apneas, but not above normal. I told her I barely slept at all and didn't think that was an accurate representation of my regular sleep, so she's going to see if my insurance will pay for a study at the sleep center, which is probably more accurate and sophisticated. I hope they do, I'm tired of being exhausted all the time!

Next week I'm going to try working three hours three days a week now and see how I do..two hours goes by so fast and I feel like I hardly get anything done. Things are weird though..Shirley disappeared for like a month, then suddenly decided she didn't want to work at the bookstore anymore, and no one knows why..she won't answer calls. I hope nothing bad is happening to her. D: Kathy retired from volunteering because she's in her 80s and wants to spend more time with her grandkids and do projects at home (which is fair, but I still miss her lol). Denise is going to step down from being the Bookstore Manager to an assistant manager..she's completely exhausted, especially with dealing with people who never listen to her and make messes every day (when I came in on Wednesday she was sobbing while trying to clean up yet another mess). The whole atmosphere is stressing me out and just making me feel weird. I miss how things were before covid messed everything up. :( I hope things can get better with a fresh new manager who likes overseeing people, though I always worry about having to get used to a new person lol. Things must improve...

( june 10-16 )

Kathy came in today, and after gathering up courage (confrontations are scary!!), I told her that I've always appreciated what she's done for me, whether for a ride home, lunch, etc, but it's just hard for me to express it. I told her that even though I was upset, I'm glad she told me so I can express it better (I said next time I will definitely make it obvious to her). She looked very touched and gave me a big hug and said "I'm glad we're still friends!" and I said "me too! Sorry for freaking out on you." She was like "that's all behind us, now we can move ahead." I said "we're good!" and she said the same. Phew!! I'm so glad there's no hard feelings between us, and I'm glad I told her I appreciated her, because I definitely do and didn't mean to hurt her feelings. She's such a great friend! I've been practicing with Denise lol..we like to get smoothies a couple times a week for lunch. It took me like five minutes to get there (my hands were shaking haha!), but I said "I appreciated the nice walk with you" and she said "thanks! I know how hard this is for you and I'm proud that you're trying so hard." Aww. She's a great friend as well! I'm so lucky and glad I have people who understand and support me <3

I meet the most..interesting people walking to work..today this homeless guy that had been digging in the trash was like "Do you have burlap bag? Burlap bag? Burlap bag!!" and I was just like "...no" and as I left he kept saying something about the Lord smiting people who don't help others..or something like that..and something about the Lord giving people burlap bags?? Uncomfortable, but I still felt bad for him..there was nothing I could do though :(

( pics for august 18 and 20 )

Today's trivia: In Japan, the Hiroshima Peace Flame has been burned continuously since it was lit in 1964, and will remain lit until all nuclear bombs on the planet are destroyed and the planet is free from the threat of nuclear annihilation

Today I went to lunch with Kathy, and after we're done she was like "I wanted to ask you..has anyone ever told you to say thank you when someone does something nice for you? You never have with me, and it kinda hurt my feelings." I told her that saying thank you is extremely hard for me, not because I don't appreciate it (of course I do!)..it's just one part of my autism I haven't been able to overcome yet (when Nina, who used to be my job coach, and I went to lunch, that subject came up once, and I was like "you know I appreciate it right?" and she said "yes, I can tell by your smile that you are thankful. A lot of my autistic clients are like that"). Kathy was like "that's not an excuse! Someone came up to me once and said that you need to say thank you, since you never do." Wait, what?!? I asked her who had said that and she said "I'm not going to say, it doesn't matter." Then I just started sobbing. She drove me back to work and I just had to hide in my office and cry..I didn't mean to hurt her feelings!! Then I thought of that "someone" who said that behind my back and felt angry and betrayed, like my whole world had just shattered. I've always wondered what people say when I'm not there, and I guess now I know. I haven't felt that depressed in a long time..if you have a problem with me, just come up and talk to me about it! I saw Kathy go into Becky's office..I think she knew that I was hurt and was telling Becky about it. I told Paulette and Denise about it, and they were both very understanding. I know they'll always have my back. <3 Kathy kept trying to talk to me like nothing had even happened, but I was too hurt to talk to her. I had to come home because I was too upset to function properly lol (I took a Xanax and went to bed LOL). I know I need to work on saying thank you, but that was NOT the right way to go about it..it hurts me deeply someone would say that behind my back. I feel better after a nap and writing this, but it still hurts. I think I'll need to talk with Kathy again, when I'm not so upset..I think I hurt her too. :( I'll just have to pick myself up and move on..I know who my true friends are and that means a lot <3

In happier news, I seriously cannot believe it's been a year since I got into polar exploration and Cherry. It was so funny, I was at work and all of a sudden, BAM! I was just sitting there like "CHERRY ANTARCTICA YAY" LOL. Cherry has definitely been an inspiration to me and has helped me through hard times <3

( pics for aug 13 and 14 )

Today's trivia: For one dazzling minute each night in Providence, Rhode Island, buildings, boats, nightclubs and folks on the street make the city skyline sparkle by flashing lights on one side of the Providence River. The aim is to brighten the spirits of kids in Hasbro Children’s Hospital, located on the opposite bank (omg this is AMAZING..I heard it on the radio earlier and couldn't wait to share it!)

1. Do you like to swim? Sure
2. Do you prefer salt or fresh water to swim in? Fresh water maybe, but swimming in the ocean is interesting too
3. Have you ever snorkeled or scuba dived? I've snorkeled yeah
4. What is your favorite beach food? Popcorn
5. What does your favorite beach towel look like? I don't really have a beach towel..

Kathy came to the bookstore yesterday and gave me the article on the Biz Bee in the newspaper she had been saving..it thanked everyone and stuff and had pics of the top three teams. Aw cool, I was in the newspaper! :D

The spelling bee last night was pretty fun. My parents, Bjorn and Kathy all came to cheer me on. We were the third team to spell..I think our first word was "recidivist" (I don't have the list with me). The sentence they used was "Justin Bieber is a recidivist and should be deported." LOL. It was kinda annoying seeing the teams misspell or throw out easy words ("Farenhight"?!? Really??). I guess they didn't practice. It's always nerve wracking being the one to spell..I make sure to spell super slow so I don't mess up (some people spelled fast! D: That freaks me out haha). We also had words like "hellebore" and "physiotherapist" (perfect for Denise, since she works for a chiropractor haha). One team got bivouac! I was so jealous, I wanted a mountaineering word haha! The team numbers kept getting lower..then there were three left, including us. That team got their word wrong, which left only two left, us and a rotary team!! OMG I was shaking like crazy haha. To win you have to spell two words in a row right..we got our word wrong, so it passed to the rotary team (conveniently they were located right below us haha). They got both their words right and won (the winning word was wharfinger). OMG we were SO happy to get second place though!! Mike said that's the best the LCA has ever done! My team is awesome, we all have different areas we're knowledgeable about (Denise is good with Middle Eastern words since she used to live there, Jackie has been involved with spelling bees a long time so she knows the words well, I'm good with Latin..). It definitely worked well for us! We got a plaque and $15 gift certificates to the bookstore. In all we raised over 23,000!!! A very successful night :) (I also finally met Layla (laylalawlor), who came too! Yay, I love meeting LJ friends hehe)

( pics! )

Tomorrow I leave on my vacation to Seward and Homer! Hopefully it'll be fun haha. And it WILL be sunny. ;) I'm not sure if I'm going over to mom's house or will get picked up tomorrow..hm

OMG it's HOT outside. Kathy and I ate outside at Gambardella's for lunch and I can't seem to cool off. It's 71 *fans self*

( Day 29: A picture of the website you visit the most )

Would you rather constantly be mistaken for the opposite sex or find out that you were voted "Ugliest Classmate" by your entire school? Constantly be mistaken for the opposite sex

Today's trivia: In West Virginia, if you run over an animal, you can legally take it home and cook it for dinner

There's a Catholic church downtown I've been wanting to go to for like 3 years. It's pretty old and imagined it looked beautiful inside. Today I went to lunch with one of my coworkers (Kathy). She had to drop something off outside the church and I asked her if we could go inside (she goes to church there too). She said we could if it was open..which it was! My vision wasn't disappointed..it was BEAUTIFUL. It had lovely stained glass and the ceiling decorations and stuff were just gorgeous. It was so powerful I felt it all the way to my feet..wow. Kathy said since I had never been to the church before to make a wish to God and I did. Aw cool. Here's a pic of it: http://img.groundspeak.com/waymarking/display/f6d779e8-da70-4ba0-a0e6-fdd190a361da.JPG

( Day 08 - A picture of your most treasured item )

Would you rather walk in circles through a revolving door 1,000 times or chew the same piece of gum for an entire week? Walk in circles

Today's trivia: An inch of rain water is equivalent to 15 inches of dry, powdery snow