Ever since reading The Alice network a few years ago, and especially after reading and watching Smilla's Sense of Snow this year, I've had a fascination with stuttering..even to the point where I watched It, and everyone knows how much I avoid horror movies (I did have to fast forward through or look away during the super creepy parts though lol). Even though that incident with Donald's mom was embarrassing, I was also..intrigued? (I still avoid saying "post," except when alone, and then I walk around saying "po-po-posss..argh!!" haha!) I wondered what it would be like to have a stutter for real (not just when embarrassed or tired). Well..some higher power heard me yesterday. I answered the phone at work and the call was frustrating and annoying..sure I stammered some, but I hate talking on the phone haha..Denise was about to step in when I hung up, and another coworker asked if I was ok. I ranted to Denise for a couple minutes and then shrugged and went back to work. Then someone else called wanting to drop off books..cool, an easy call, one I do every day! I just wanted to say "come in the front door with them," but instead I said "come...come...come" and then couldn't say another word..the silence on the other end was deafening, and I was totally panicking (I think that's called a "block"..accurate. It was scary!). I had to take the phone away from my ear for a few seconds, but still all I could say was "umm.." and the person saved me by saying "come in the front with them?" I let out a huge breath she probably heard lol and was finally able to say "yes, come in the front!" Then I was thinking "NOPE nevermind I don't want to know what having a stutter is like!!" Too late, because for the next hour or so, I couldn't stop stuttering! My coworker again asked me if I was ok and I said "I don't know!" haha. My brain has definitely had moments like this before, but this time seemed worse. I went to tell Denise my horrifying story and was like "I was trying to tell her to come...come...um...in." Ugh, so embarrassing..why was I curious again?? LOL. Donna was off yesterday and I tried telling her today about the "fun" phone calls I had lol, and went right back to how I was talking yesterday..I imagine I'll do the same thing when I tell mom haha, but at least I can laugh about it now. :P And to whatever higher power that was, I appreciate you listening, but I'm good now LOL. I sure have weird obsessions :P
It was in the 80s the past couple days, WAY too hot for Alaska! A forest fire 20 miles from here from lightning on Tuesday blew up, and it was pretty smoky yesterday. Yesterday evening came a crazy thunderstorm that lasted a couple hours, which thankfully cooled things off after it was over..I don't work well in the heat lol
( june 14-17 )Today's trivia: The Canary Islands' Spanish name Islas Canarias is derived from the Latin phrase Canariae Insulae, which means the "island of dogs"
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