I got my gene testing results today, which was interesting. There are three columns, green (works with your genetic makeup), yellow (moderate reaction) and red (significant reaction). Paxil, the med that made me feel dead inside, is in the red column. Wellbutrin (which side effects sent me to the hospital), Prozac, Remeron, Seroquel, Trazodone, Buspirone and Zoloft are in the yellow column, which explains why they haven't worked so well (Prozac was great for awhile though, sad it stopped working!). Some of the meds in the green are Cymbalta, Pristiq, Luvox and Trintellix (I'd only heard of Cymbalta). My psychiatrist is going to start me on Trintellix and stop the Prozac. Of course it takes at least a couple weeks for the meds to start working, but hopefully my genes will like it LOL and it'll help better than anything else (and get my life back??). It's pretty cool that gene testing can show this kind of thing, and we can stop guessing now lol

When I was in high school, I fell in love with a guy named Nick, and was so sad when we went to different schools. I really pined after him all through high school, and would always have dreams about him. A mutual friend actually told me he had an LJ, which made me ecstatic..until he read the entries where I was gushing over him..OMG so embarrassing haha. He hasn't updated for many years, but once in awhile I would Google his name, but find nothing. Eventually, over many years, I stopped obsessing, but still thought of him once in awhile (I think I'll always have a soft spot for him though). Out of nowhere, I have had TWO dreams about him this week!! (Last night's was really nice lol, he sat next to me and was friendly.) So weird! Now I miss him all over again..thanks, subconsciousness :P

( feb 18-23 )

Movies watched this week (in order): Click, Mulan 2, LOTR: FOTR, On Guard, Mulan, Nero (half)

Ryan was so high when he got home from the stuff the people gave him after he got his wisdom teeth out haha..he said things like "I feel like I'm chewing on glass, but in a good way..I feel like I'm on acid!" Haha

I dreamed about Nick again..are my dreams trying to tell me something?? Why the Nick dreams again?

Today's Latin: nec mora nec requies (neither delay nor rest)

My story starts with last night...I was looking at (tech theater) Emily's Myspace and I noticed Nick was one of her friends. I was like WHOA and told Emily today and she FREAKED. She was like "OMG NICK IS AWESOME HE'S ONE OF MY BEST GUY FRIENDS!" and she kept touching me and it was scary haha. I told her I love him and she freaked out even more and was like "I'm SO gonna hook you guys up!" She said to ask him if he wants to go somewhere with Emily and I. Oh wow...could I be getting a boyfriend soon??

I also saw Wendy today...I hadn't seen her in forever and it made me happy. And we got candy in Latin. This day is...wow..

I did it..I basically asked Nick out..on Myspace..just now..ahhhhh! *blushes and hides*

Today's Latin: compos mentis (in a sound state of mind)

"Once I knew all the tales, it's time to turn back time, follow the pale moonlight, once I wished for this night, faith brought me here"--"Dark Chest of Wonders," Nightwish

I watched Finding Nemo last night...I love that movie. Haha Dory called Nemo Fabio...if I wrote it I'd so put a clip of Fabio Lione's voice at that part. I always think of Nick while watching it...

It stormed lots last night...there was a tornado in Denton!! Way too close for me!! It started to storm here around 1 (of course when I was about to sleep). No tornadoes though *phew*

Today's Latin: mea diilectissima (my favorite)

"From this grey prison I look at you, my lost and beloved wasted holy town. I call the prophecy's miracle, the thunder of the ancient book's word"--"Steelgods of the Last Apocalypse," Rhapsody

I feel sooo embarassed...Nick read my old LJ entries...he probably thinks I'm an idiot now or something...oh man...

I got pagan_pentagram's Christmas card yesterday! I swear her handwriting looks exactly like Amanda's! She drew a really awesome pic of baby Luca holding a guitar and long curly brown hair and a huge pink bow in his hair...what I always wanted! Haha...I also got a present from my aunt and her family...it's tiny! (haha I wrote shiny instead of tiny...ooo I rhymed!)...well in two days I shall see what it is!

I'm gonna embarass myself more by putting really weird pics of myself here! And I shall post some surveys I did last night...I had waaaay too much SoBe and I think you'll be able to notice that...

( the lifeclock strikes and you obey...time! isn't here to staaaay... )

"By the ruins he stands, and he's waiting for me to enter Tanelorn"--"The Quest for Tanelorn," Blind Guardian

THE SUMMER TRIP WITH AMANDA IS NOW FINAL!!!! Now all that's left is waiting to see if Amanda will get on a plane. When she does I'll so freak out. Ooooo I can't wait!! We can get high off Rhapsody together and stuff haha! I can't waaaait!

Amanda and I listened to Queen of the Dark Horizons together and it was really fun! We both obssesed over how fast Luca was and how he was blinding the screen from his shinyness

MY DREAMS ARE TRYING TO TORTURE MEEEEE!!! I was in a war and we hung out and I had good friends and then I was called out to fight and then I died, but then I got reborn or somerthing and my friends were happy. Then we went to a store and Nick was there...he was playing with this dolphin stuffed animal thing and it landed by me. I picked it up and Nick grabbed it saying, "my dolphin! Mine!" (it really is something he would say). This part of the dream felt soo real too...I hope it's trying to tell me I'll see him in a store...

"Gargoyles and wizards prepare this last ride, mountains and valleys are calling your might"--"Queen of the Dark Horizons," Rhapsody

Ok Amanda made 3 really depressing entries so that's why I'm worried...anyway, Dracula 2000 came yesterday and I watched it...it was really bad. Gerry was Dracula and he whispered like the whole time. It was also very gory and weird. AND GERRY DIED! Hopefully Tomb Raider 2 will be better...I also watched POTO so I saw lotsa Gerry lol!

I had another dream about Frank DellaPenna! 3 days in a row...I must be more obsessed than I thought. I dunno why but he was outside of Grapevine Mills mall...dressed like Westley from The Princess Bride...

Amanda's calling me today...*gets phone shy*...I wanna call Kathryn too...*gets more phone shy*...oh dear...*thinks about Nick calling*...ahhhhh!!!

"Light fails at dawn. The moon is gone and deadly the night reigns"--"Time Stands Still (At the Iron Hill)," Blind Guardian

YAY!! I get to go out to eat tonight to celebrate.

I'm suddenly obsessed with Rhapsody's "Emerald Sword" album. It's SOOOOO good!! There's only 3 songs, but they put *REALLY* good 3 songs ("Emerald Sword," "Where Dragons Fly," "Land of Immortals"). "ON THE WAY TO THE GLORY I'LL HONOR MY SWORD!!" OMG!!!!!

Congrats to Amanda! She gets to see her boyfriend Warren tomorrow! (She even woke up at 4 in the morning to tell me!) Have fun! If only Nick would do that...*blushes crimson*

"For the king, for the land, for the mountains, for the green valleys where dragons fly. For the glory the power to win the black lord, I will search for the emerald sword!!!"--"Emerald Sword," Rhapsody

I learned a tecnique, G chord, and a (simple) song. My teacher was impressed on how well I did with C and E minor! Now I got lots more to practice.

I almost got to see my friend Kayleigh yesterday! My brother slept over a her house (he's friends with her brother), so I thought I could say hi. She wasn't there, though. I also wanted to get Nick's number. I miss him so much! Have I fell hopelessly in love? I had a dream about him the other night, lol! *blush*

*imagines fencing Nick*

"The green will be stained forever"--"Battlefield," Blind Guardian

Mood:happy
Music:"Power of the Dragonflame"-Rhapsody

SWORD!! LOL! I'm so bored, if ya can't tell already. I think I'm crazy over swords or something. I have one, but it rusts. That's why there's *stainless* steel, like my brother's swords. I wanna fence someone, but not my brother. How about Nick? I couldn't call him even if I had his number. I'm *way* to shy.

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"Onwards victory, let us hear your battle cry"--"Warriors of Fath"-HammerFall