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1. What complaints do you have about this weekend? Mom isn't here, but maybe we'll video chat! (Greyboy will be happy to have someone to sleep with haha, last week he drooled on my face :P)
2. What are your grievances with yourself? So I used to be super controlling with friends, and got mad when they couldn't talk to me all the time. For years I felt very guilty, and finally apologized to my friend who I had treated badly..she forgave me and I finally was able to mostly make peace with myself..until the other day when I came across an entry where I was ranting about that friend, and said things like "all she cares about her boyfriend and how wonderful her life is...I make perfectly fine comments on her LJ and she's like RAAAAR *attack*...and she may be kinda ignoring me...well and Kathryn too. Are we like the most shunned people on earth? Well she better GET OUT OF HER IMAGINARY DREAM AND NOTICE THINGS OTHER THAN HER BOYFRIEND!!!!! She's gonna sooo kill me for saying this but it's true" and "You're probably thinking "OMG I feel guilty and I'm a horrible person" right? Well don't...you're not a horrible person and if you feel guilty...that's the point...it makes you think and all." WTF?!?!?? That upset me all over again..why would I even write something that mean?? I was horrified reading that again..no wonder she didn't want to be friends with me anymore. :/ I'm so glad I'm not that same person now, yikes!!
3. What are your objections to rainbows, flowers, and puppies? Rainbows can mean too much rain, flowers can make you sneeze and puppies are a lot of work lol
4. What are your criticisms about your domicile? I always need more space for books haha
5. What’s your beef with excessively negative people? Some might have depression or something, but I can never understand the people who are like that just because..sounds miserable, and makes everyone around you miserable

This morning I woke up to snow! (It snowed Monday too, but not as much as today.) It's still snowing, but a lot of it has melted. The last 3 years or so it didn't snow in September, so now it feels too early for snow haha

Donald and his mom came in to the bookstore again this week (stomach: *drops*) and I asked his mom if he has a disability, and she said he was autistic and has a mental disorder, but he knows it and takes his meds. I thought he was autistic, but he didn't seem to know what it was when I asked him about it..weird..

Alaska's covid case rate per capita is the highest in the nation..lovely :/

( sept. 18-24 )

1. With whom did you most recently exchange words? Donna
2. Which of your weekend activities will feel like your sentence for a crime? Uhh..not sure lol
3. What have you loved or hated upon reading its first paragraph? Where the Crawdads Sing, The Martian and Underland all got me with the first sentence or two. "The way into the underland is through the riven trunk of an old ash tree" totally intrigued me and made me curious for more!
4. In the story of your life, what will be the title of the chapter beginning tomorrow? "Another Lazy Saturday"?? Haha
5. What are the best and worst books you were assigned to read in school? A few I liked were Where the Red Fern Grows, 1984, Gathering Blue and Timeline, and I HATED Of Mice and Men..it seemed so pointless after it ended the way it did

On Monday after dreading hanging out with Donald all day, I knew I had to tell him we couldn't anymore..I groaned inwardly when I saw him waiting by my door when I got home. I let him in, but didn't want to watch a movie or eat the pizza he brought..I just wanted to be alone after a busy day. I just kept cringing at his stupid jokes. He doesn't understand body language or subtle hints, so I just had to tell him straight up that he should find someone else to hang out with, who has the same interests and more energy and stuff. He said "oh" and sat down for a couple minutes, and then asked me for some metal CDs to listen to, and wondered if we could listen to music next week? Ugh, this is going to be harder than I thought. I didn't mention what happened last week and how embarrassing that was and he didn't say anything, so hopefully he forgot about it LOL. The word "post" is now ruined for me now, I can't usually say it without stuttering badly! Good thing I don't have to say it very often lol. I hope I can say "no" next week without hurting his feelings too much..

We don't have to wear masks at work now if we're vaccinated, yay! It was VERY weird at first, I felt naked haha! I'm glad that people can see me smiling again lol

( may 17-21 )

On Sunday night I didn't sleep well, and I was busy all day, so when Donald came over, I told him I didn't really feel like watching anything (weirdly, he hadn't slept well either!), so we ate pizza and talked..I was telling him about autism, and how some days I'm tired and peopled-out and just want to hide in my apartment the rest of the day haha. I catch him just staring at me, and when I notice, he's like "you're so beautiful!" and says things like "I should shave my beard, so I will look nice for you." Ugh. I keep hoping staying silent will give him the hint that I don't want to be in a relationship, but apparently that's not working LOL. He invited me to his apartment so I could look at his movies and borrow some. Omg..I'm not a paragon of cleanliness or anything, but his apartment was a complete MESS..like he had food on the floor next to trash and who knows what, and it smelled funny. *SHUDDERS* No wonder he didn't mind my clutter. O_o If we have yearly inspections again, he is definitely not going to pass. I was relieved when I could get out of there :P

Yesterday he came to the bookstore with his mom, and my stomach dropped when I saw him..I should never have told him where I work LOL. When they went to check out, I suddenly just..couldn't talk properly. They mentioned the movie Mortal Engines, and when I tried asking if it was a post-apocalyptic movie, it came out as "is..it..a......post....apocalyptic movie? *cringe*" It took a huge amount of effort just to get "post-apocalyptic" out! "Weird," I thought, trying to recover, and then said "I don't necessarily like ...p..post...apoc...talyptic movies" (really starting to worry now!!). His mom mentioned it was a little violent, and when I tried saying that's not the reason I don't like them, it was more like "I...that's...I-I...n-not...uhh...why!" By this time, I was panicking and totally freaking out..the more I tried talking, the worse I got. It was SUPER embarrassing, and I wanted to just melt into the floor. I do tend to stutter when I'm nervous, but not THAT badly. O__o OMG. After they left, I was agitated, horrified, embarrassed (his mom must think I'm stupid!), and couldn't stop thinking about it the rest of the day. I also kept trying to say "post-apocalyptic" when I was calmer, but couldn't do it! I could barely do "p-p-osss.." WTF?? If THAT keeps happening, especially around his mom, I really don't want to hang out with him anymore. I should never have said yes in the first place..sigh. I guess I'll see what happens next time I see him lol (today I can say "post-apocalyptic" again..so weird!!)

Yesterday I saw a comment from someone that didn't want the covid vaccine because "it'll replace your human DNA with computer DNA! 666 is coming!" I REALLY want to believe they were joking, but I don't think they were..scary D:

The trees are leafing out and the birch pollen is "high," but weirdly, I haven't really been affected by it! Last year I was completely miserable, so I'm relieved lol

( may 8-12 )

Today's trivia: About eight percent of the Earth's crust is aluminum, making it the most abundant metal on the planet

Donald came over on Monday, and I had a plan: I would incessantly talk about Cherry, and he would get annoyed and leave haha. When he came over I was like "have you ever seen The Worst Journey in the World??" Of course he hadn't, but when I looked on YouTube I saw it wasn't there anymore. :( :( :( So I told him about the Winter Journey, Scott and his men's death after marching to the pole, showed him pictures of Cherry, recited from The Worst Journey, and anything else I could think of. Sure enough, he had absolutely no interest and was incredibly bored LOL, and he thought it was too depressing (he was terrified to touch my Worst Journey first edition because of how old it looked). It was fun at first, but then started feeling guilty because of how pained he looked. He wanted to watch a movie, so I put on 90 South, Ponting's videos of the expedition..amazingly, he said he kinda enjoyed it, because it wasn't the Worst Journey haha, and he liked seeing the animals. I excitedly pointed out Cherry whenever he was shown..one of my favorite parts of the film is when Cherry is standing in front of a sledge, beaming and scratching his head with a ski pole..for some reason I find that adorable. <3 I kept branching off into other things like the Franklin Expedition, but he looked so pained I had to stop..I'm not that evil LOL. After 2-3 hours of talking, I was TIRED..I'm not used to talking that much!! The Cherry Plan didn't work, because he asked if he could come back next Monday. I think the previous time I was in a bad mood because I kept getting migraines from my other glasses, but this time was fine, so I said sure, though I may not always have the energy I had on Monday..we shall see :P

( may 2-5 )

Today's trivia: Sweet Home Alabama was the first film allowed to shoot in New York City after the September 11, 2001 attacks

1) What's the furthest place you've traveled to in the last 12 months? Anchorage
2) What's the most interesting small town within driving distance? Hmmm..North Pole or Nenana?
3) What's the coolest tourist attraction in your city? The river, the Northern Lights, etc
4) What was your favorite road trip you took as a kid? Texas to Florida; California and Arizona, Texas to Kansas, etc
5) How often do you feel like you've got to get away? A lot, which makes the pandemic hard..I want to travel safely again!

Donald is the name of the guy who came over on Sunday, and he gave me his phone number yesterday (I saw that coming :P). He wondered if he could have my phone number and I was like "no, I'm really phone shy." He wanted me to dial his number anyway to see if it worked, so I did..he answered and said "hi," and I did too, and then locked up and couldn't say another word and just stared stupidly at my phone. After I recovered I was like "see what I mean!" haha. I feel so awkward around him lol. He wants to watch a movie on Monday..maybe I can convince mom to come over too, so I don't panic again :P

( april 29-30 )

That guy (I forgot his name already lol) came over last weekend bearing juice, so I let him in and we talked for a few minutes about movies and stuff (I think he's autistic too, he kinda reminds me of Bjorn, only more stable). On Sunday he came over with some movies, and we watched the first Narnia movie. It was kinda torturous, I was uncomfortable the whole time, especially since he kept talking through the whole movie and telling really lame jokes. He was like "we can watch the next one tomorrow! And we can do a White Elephant on Christmas! I have a pizza I can bring up" *screams internally* I said the movies should be more of a once a week thing, which he seemed ok with. I asked him what made him knock on my door that one day, and he said a couple other residents told him I was cool and that we should hang out. I appreciate the sentiment, but I just..don't want to. After he left, I had a massive panic attack and just started sobbing..I had to wrap myself in my weighted blanket so I could calm down! If that keeps happening I'm somehow just going to have to tell him I just can't do it. He came in the bookstore yesterday and I just felt myself dissociating. This is why I'll probably never have a boyfriend LOL, it's too stressful!

I'm still getting bills from surgery..my insurance is paying most of it, but I still owe over $1000..just the recovery room itself was over $4000!!!! D: How is that even legal?? That's crazy..

Apparently it's supposed to snow on Friday, the day before May..yeahh Alaskan weather doesn't care, it just does what it wants :P

I can't believe it's been a year since my parents looked at the house they're in now! The actual house is nicer, but I still miss the nice area we were in and not being close to neighbors haha

( pokemon update )

24. How do you find new music? Usually on the radio, or from recommendations

25. What physical traits have you inherited from your father? Maybe my nose and lips?

26. What physical traits have you inherited from your mother? Hair, blue eyes, etc

27. Where were you raised for most of your life? Texas, for 18 years

Today's trivia: The Declaration of Independence, the Constitution, and the Bill of Rights were stored at Fort Knox during World War II

Me and Ryan and Jo got our second shots on Saturday! We had trouble sleeping that night, and all of us felt achy and headachey on Sunday, but Motrin helped with that. Hopefully we're now well protected against covid!

A few minutes ago, the person who lives below me knocked on my door and thanked me for being a quiet neighbor! I try hard, so that was nice. He was worried he was too loud, but no, I never hear him. Aaaand then he basically asked me out, wondering if we could hang out at his apartment and drink juice..of course he had an ulterior motive LOL. Those situations are always so awkward! I was like "uhh..maybe after covid is over?" I really just want to be left alone, but at least I know I'm a quiet neighbor :P

It's finally gotten into the 40s, and everything is melting like crazy! It's nice not to have to have all that winter gear on now haha

Dear whoever made the movie Greenland: it did not escape my notice that you were 100% filming in ICELAND. Despite its name, Greenland is NOT lush and green, and the waterfall the plane flew over was definitely Skógafoss. Nice try though LOL :P

( april 10-13 )

Today's trivia: No number before 1,000 contains the letter A