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Friday five
Jul. 28th, 2023 05:46 pm1. When did you recently have the feeling, "Life is good"? Yesterday, after doing well at work this week
2. Which do you need more, routine or spontaneity? Both
3. Do you have a difficult or annoying neighbor? No, thankfully they've been evicted. I'm so glad it's safe there now! Last year it was like the Wild West before Jose was hired D:
4. What do you want to change about yourself? Be happier, for one
5. What do you like best about where you live? Glaciers (you can see glaciers just by driving for 2 or 3 hours?? Amazing!), the Northern Lights, moose, etc
I worked four days this week! I was very tired (especially since it's been in the 80s all this week), but proud and felt accomplished. Just a few months ago I was seriously thinking of quitting because I couldn't handle anything. I'd get so stressed if there were lots of books to shelve, and felt like I had to do everything in one day. I'd go home thinking of all the work there was still to be done. Now I've learned it's impossible to do everything in one day..if I only have time or energy to shelve a couple boxes of books, that's fine. Denise has told me she's grateful no matter what I get done, and finally I got it through my head. I'M SOOO much happier and relaxed finally realizing this..no one is judging me for the work I haven't gotten done yet, they're pleased with whatever I accomplish that day. Now I go home thinking of everything I DID accomplish that day, and feel great about it! My anxiety is so much better now! I wish I could have realized this a long time ago, it would have saved me a lot of stress lol. I don't know what it is about the Prozac and Amitriptyline combo, but my body just seems to like it. I never should have stopped it in the first place! (I don't like that Amitriptyline makes my mouth dry, but that's still better than anxiety/depression!) My mood still isn't quite what it used to be, but I think that might be because I'm constantly sleep deprived..I'm hoping the CPAP will fix that. My anger has gone away (that's a sign I'm VERY depressed) and ( TW: suicidal thoughts ) My counselor was so happy yesterday when he heard how much I've improved..he and my psychiatrist were huge factors in that..I can't repay them enough. I'm glad I'm enjoying working again, and that things seem a little brighter now after all I've gone through this past year. Thank you everyone who refused to give up on me, even when I was convinced I was broken and hopeless <3
( july 22-28 )
2. Which do you need more, routine or spontaneity? Both
3. Do you have a difficult or annoying neighbor? No, thankfully they've been evicted. I'm so glad it's safe there now! Last year it was like the Wild West before Jose was hired D:
4. What do you want to change about yourself? Be happier, for one
5. What do you like best about where you live? Glaciers (you can see glaciers just by driving for 2 or 3 hours?? Amazing!), the Northern Lights, moose, etc
I worked four days this week! I was very tired (especially since it's been in the 80s all this week), but proud and felt accomplished. Just a few months ago I was seriously thinking of quitting because I couldn't handle anything. I'd get so stressed if there were lots of books to shelve, and felt like I had to do everything in one day. I'd go home thinking of all the work there was still to be done. Now I've learned it's impossible to do everything in one day..if I only have time or energy to shelve a couple boxes of books, that's fine. Denise has told me she's grateful no matter what I get done, and finally I got it through my head. I'M SOOO much happier and relaxed finally realizing this..no one is judging me for the work I haven't gotten done yet, they're pleased with whatever I accomplish that day. Now I go home thinking of everything I DID accomplish that day, and feel great about it! My anxiety is so much better now! I wish I could have realized this a long time ago, it would have saved me a lot of stress lol. I don't know what it is about the Prozac and Amitriptyline combo, but my body just seems to like it. I never should have stopped it in the first place! (I don't like that Amitriptyline makes my mouth dry, but that's still better than anxiety/depression!) My mood still isn't quite what it used to be, but I think that might be because I'm constantly sleep deprived..I'm hoping the CPAP will fix that. My anger has gone away (that's a sign I'm VERY depressed) and ( TW: suicidal thoughts ) My counselor was so happy yesterday when he heard how much I've improved..he and my psychiatrist were huge factors in that..I can't repay them enough. I'm glad I'm enjoying working again, and that things seem a little brighter now after all I've gone through this past year. Thank you everyone who refused to give up on me, even when I was convinced I was broken and hopeless <3
( july 22-28 )
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