*sigh*

[glacier_kitty]

I really hate to say this...but I have to get it out. I don't really feel close to Amanda anymore...she seems very distant and her LJ entries are really, really strange...dunno what but something changed after her trip. I feel like she mostly only cares abour Ari...from her pics and her LJ entries she seemed to have more fun with him than me. I tried to keep those feelings away but I guess they came full force now...she consantly obsesses over him. And she talks to him every day on the phone and I guess I feel left out or something. And I feel really odd talking to her on IM...dunno why. And she has a job now and will start school soon and will probably be busy and I'll feel even more distant. Now Kathryn I feel really close to...probably cause I talk to her a lot. I dunno what to do...I hope no one is offended by this...it would be scary if Amanda shared the same feelings with me...I'm shaking as I'm writing this...I guess I'm scared for the future...and I never share my feelings like this so it's hard. I hope this feeling is just temporary...

Passed both of last week's Latin quizzes. Yay *thumbs up*

"Born in the days of medieval, my inner voice is always asking why"--"The Script For My Requiem," Blind Guardian

Comments

[rdyfrde.livejournal.com]

Aww that sucks :(

[opera-lover-44.livejournal.com]

If I have learned but one thing this week it's that holding feelings inside of you really hurts. I also learned that letting them out into the world can in a result hurt you more but after that it's a great feeling...now that you have all this out to amanda she'll be able to work things out with you

[glacier-kitty.livejournal.com]

Exactly! I feel *so* much better now that I've written that out

[opera-lover-44.livejournal.com]

I feel a lot better now that I told Warren how I feel too though...he e-mailed me back today telling me he was too busy to talk about it so now I have to wait LONGER....but still. It's like a giant weight lifted off of me...now...why are we writing here when we could be on IM? hahaha

[minuetcat.livejournal.com]

Heather, I'm talking to you on IM and I hope that's helping. It's good you wrote all this down...it's not good to keep stuff like that in. Really though, you are not more important than Ari, and when I neglect you I also neglect everyone else on LJ. Also, I've been feeling overly useful and therefore more purposeful and daring...that makes a change in my LJ entries because I feel comfortable enough to mock different ways of speech and not feel worried about how people take it. I've also been making lot more jokes that I think are funny because they make absolutely no sense, but that's always been me.
Anyway, I hope you feel better and I'm sorry you feel like this. It wasn't intentional.

[beejang.livejournal.com]

Well, this situation always happened with my friends when her closed friend was about to have boyfriend. I understand how you feel. I'm not saying about jealousy but I know sometime you will feel it and you can't prevent it. Anyway, be optimistic. You are still closed to her, you should be happy with her. At least, she is still your friend after all.

[glacier-kitty.livejournal.com]

Thank you lol. We're talking on IM right now, and I'm feeling better. Thanks for your words lol (does that make me sound Italian?)