I...hate...busyness...

[glacier_kitty]

I'm afraid I'll never get to talk to Amanda on IM again. Sure Christmas break is coming but she'll be working then too and probably won't wanna talk cause she hasn't done it in awhile and will be depressed or something...and I don't wanna call her cause I'm afraid I'll interrupt her or her dad or Linda will answer. *shudder* Ah well, at least I have Kathryn, Caitlin, Heather (rdyfrde) and David...but I promise, I will never be too busy for friends...I've experienced it. I've seen what it's done to people. I'd feel horrible...

I feel a change in myself. I dunno how it happened. It just...did. I mean I can tell my mom what's bothering me instead of just drowning in my depression. I can ask teachers for help and raise my hand. I couldn't have done these things a few years ago...I'm conquering autism, yay!

Could this week be going any slower?! *wants to see Trans-Siberian Orchestra*


BASIC
full complete name: Heather Susan M
are u named after anyone?: No
whats ur screenname: Lots
would u name a child of urs after urself?: No
nickname: Chaco, Isilwen
odd nicknames uve been called: Gir Gir
any mispronounciations/typos ppl do with ur name constantly: Yeah
if u were born the opposite sex, what would ur name be?: Dunno
if u could switch names with a friend, who would it be: No one
gender: Female
sexual orientation: Straight
birthdate: 6-8-89
number of candles on ur last birthday cake: 16
birthplace: California
zodiac sign: Gemini
current location: Texas
currently living: Of course...*looks at self* I don't look dead do I?
ethnicity/race: White
eye color: Blue
happy with it?: Yeah
hair color: Blonde
happy with it?: Yeah
height: 5'
weight: 99 lbs
left/right/ambidextrious: Right
living arrangements: Parents, brother
family: Yep...one of them is playing the piano...the same song over and over...grrr!!!!!
job: Obsessing...erm I mean I'm a student
what do u even do: Watch Luca talk
piercings: No
tattoos: No
ur school: FMHS
ur state: Texas
bf/gf: No
think ur attractive: Sure
are u confident: Sometimes
age u act: 16
age u wish u were: 16's fine
obsessions: Luca Turilli, Italy, music...
can u speak another language: Not fluently
are u spoiled: No
are u a good role model: Yeah
most overused phrase on messaging service: lol
most overused phrase in real life convo: Majorly
one word to describe urself: Obsessed
THE LAST...
thing u said: Don't remember
thing u ate: Oreos
thing u drank: Orange juice
song u listened to: "Battle Hymn"-Manowar
place u went: A restaraunt
movie u saw at the theatre: Harry Potter 4
movie u rented: Spanglish
tv show u watched: House
time u laughed: Earlier
why:
FAVS
food: Mexican
candy: Smarties
number: 16
color: Green
flower: Magnolia
cereal: None
actor: Gerard Butler
actress: Miranda Otto
animal: Cat
drink: SoBe
alcoholic drink: None
bagel: Blueberry
letter: Y
band: Rhapsody
sport to watch: Fencing
professional team: None
brand of makeup: None
teacher: Mr. Sales
fast food: Wendy's
car: Highlander
inside joke: Luca is shiny
city: Rome
quote: "Through violence and horror shall honor arise"
thing about ur body: Hair
least fav thing about ur body: Nothing
word starting with "w": Wonder
saying: Holy cannoli
LOVE
do u still remember ur first love: Yeah
still love him/her: Yeah
do u consider love a mistake: No
what do u find romantic: Dunno
turn-on: Long hair
turn-off: Obnoxious
do u go more by looks or personality: Personality
what is best about the opposite sex: Depends
what is the worst about them: Depends
are u in love: Yeah
is ur significant other hot: Hot like Luca ;)
are u the romantic type: No
has anyone ever loved u: Probably
does someone love u right now: Probably
what would u do on ur ideal date: Dunno
what should a person NEVER EVER EVER do on a first date: Have sex
do u know when ur in love/lust: Yeah
most impressive pickup line: Dunno
do u like to be in physical contact alot (handholding, touching): No
ur first love: height, hair color, eye color: 6', blonde, blue
his/her personality: Majorly honorable
his/her fav color: Dunno
describe how ur relationship was: Nonexistant lol
THIS OR THAT
coke or pepsi: Neither
mcdonalds/burger king: Neither
strawberry/watermelon: Strawberry
hot tea/ice tea: Neither
chocolate/vanilla: Vanilla
hot chocolate/coffee: Hot chocolate
kiss/hug: Hug
volleyball/tennis: Volleyball
ice cream/frozen yogurt: Ice cream
dog/cat: Cat
rap/punk: Neither
summer/winter: Summer
funny/scary movies: Funny
deaf/blind: Deaf
love/money: Love
apples/oranges: Apples
ocean/lake: Ocean
pizza/chinese: Pizza
mansion/penthouse: Mansion
baseball/football: Neither
waffles/pancakes: Waffles
soda/pop: Neither
republican/democrat: Republican
AIM/yahoo: Yahoo
skim/whole/1%/2% milk: 2%
you: shy/outgoing: Shy
southpark/malcolm in the middle: Malcom in the Middle
cheerleading/murdering: Neither
tequila/vodka: Neither
lost prophets/sugarcult: Neither
fruit/veggies: Fruit
srping/fall: Spring
elementary/middle school: Middle school
guy friends/girl friends: Both
straight/curly hair: Depends
shark/gummy bear: Gummy bear
paris/nicky hilton: Neither
broken heart/serious injury: Neither
serious relationship/short fling: Serious relationship
freak dance/slow dance: Freak dance
cell phone/home phone: Cell phone
chinese/japanese food: Chinese
YOUR...
style: Comfy
future job: Writer
car: None
bedtime: 10-1
most missed memory: Lots
best physical feature: Hair
first thought waking up: What time is it?
goal for this year: Dunno
hows it going so far?: Wonderful lol
best friend: Amanda, Kathryn
jewelry: Bracelets, ring, necklace
weakness: Accents
fears: Death
heritage: German, English, Swedish
longest relationship: A year
and shortest: A year
pets: 4 cats
siblings: 1 brother
their names and ages: Ryan, 13
parents together?: Yeah
names and ages: Karen, 50. Pete, 57
hero: Jesus
current average in school: Dunno
most frequently heard compliment: Your hair has grown...it's beautiful
greatest strength/weakness: Honor. Gullible
cocktail of choice: None
thing ur most proud of: Being me
hobbies: Internet,music, reading, obsessing, fencing
talents: Reading, writing, swimming, obsessing, fencing
label: Metalhead
HAVE U EVER...
drank: No
smoked: No
pot: No
been drunk: No
been completely wasted: No
been in a fight: Yeah
howd it go: Ok
been beaten up: Yeah
beaten someone up: No
shoplifted: No
been outta the state: Yeah
been bitched out: No
been played: No
been suspended: No
skinny dipped: No
been dumped lately: No
been to the mall lately: Yeah
had a crush and they never knew: Yeah
climbed outta ur bedroom window: No
thrown-up in a public place: Yeah
broken a bone: No
got stitches: No
been in love: Yeah
had a broken heart: No
been on a boat: Yeah
been on a jetski: Yeah
sworn at ur parents: No
been to disneyland/disneyworld: Yeah
been to california: Yeah
driven a car: No
ride in a limo: No
drink champagne: No
been on stage: Yeah
slept outdoors: Yeah
pulled an all-nighter: No
whats ur record:
talked on the phone all night: No
slept all day: No
thought u were going crazy: Yeah
been betrayed: No
had a dream that came true: Yeah
broken the law: No
met someone famous: No
killed an animal by accident: No
stolen anything: No
considered a religious vacation: Probably
gone in a hot-air balloon: No
pretended to be someone else to be cool: No
laughed so hard u cried: No
talked to someone u dont know: Yeah
gone out of ur way to befriend someone: Yeah
made out in a theatre: No
been outta the country: Yeah
failed a grade: No
been to cedar point or six flags: Six Flags
done something crazy in public: No
eaten cheesecake: Yeah
IN A GUY/GIRL
eye color: Brown
hair color: Brown
short or long hair: Long
height: 5'4
style: Comfy
looks or personality: Personality
hot or cute: Hot
average or hot: Hot
drugs or alcohol: Neither
muscular or really skinny: In between
blonde or brunette: Brunette
interests: Music
first thing u notice: Hair
first body part u notice: Hair
FRIENDS
known the longest: Amanda
tell ur problems to: Kathryn
tell ur secrets to and know they wont tell: Kathryn
do u have any gay/lesbian friends: No
newest: Caitlin
shyest: Kathryn
u miss being close to the most: Amanda
u fight with the most: Amanda
whos house u were at last: Dunno
loudest: Genna
one uve lost: Amanda T
lazyest: Dunno
do u think ur popular: No
what do u like best about ur friends: There for me
what kinds of cars do ur friends drive: None
whats the nicest thing a friends done for u: Been there
what do they think of u: Ask them lol
ur best friends: Amanda, Kathryn, Caitlin
CLOTHING
shoe brand: Sketchers
clothing brand: None
scent: Steel
normal attire: Jeans, t-shirt
do u wear hats: No
do u wear make-up: No
favorite place to shop: Nowhere
favorite article of clothing: Cape
are u trendy: No
would u rather wear a uniform to school: YES
DO YOU...
cook: No
open ur eyes underwater: Yeah
eat whatever u want: Yeah
like to party: No
have cheese obsessions: No
like thunderstorms: Yeah
get along with ur parents: Yeah
think ur attractive: Sure
believe in urself: Sometimes
wanna go to college: Yeah
like trampolines: Yeah
rent or own: Own
smoke: No
drink: No
smoke pot: No
shower daily: Yeah
sing: Yeah
like getting ur pic taken: Yeah
have a tan: No
complain alot: Kinda
think country-western people=redneck: Kinda
get annoyed easily: Yeah
have an ipod: No
like mohawks: No
want to get married: I am lol
want children: No
got any names picked out:
think ur fat: No
hate anyone: No
have a pool: Yeah
babysit: No
look more like ur mom or dad: Dunno
cry a lot: No
cry to get out of trouble: Not usually
workout: No
have 6-pack abs: No
consider urself nice: Yeah
fall in love easily: No
chew ice: No
floss: No
play an instrument: No but Luca does...LOL
have braces: No
watch more than 40 hours of tv a week: No
blowdry/straighten ur hair: No
have any special talents or skills: Probably
bite ur nails: No
like to go fighing: Huh?
live in an apartment or house: House
believe in love at first sight: No
pray: Yeah
go to church: No
live in the moment: Sure
consider urself tolerant of others: Yeah
hate birds: No
find urself attractive: Sure
think taco bell is awesome: No
have any secrets: No
hate urself: No
like ur handwriting: Yeah
like animals: Yeah
like drinking from straws: Yeah
have any bad habits: Yeah
believe in organized religion: Yeah
think lifes been good so far: Yeah
believe in witches: No
think its possible to be faithful forever: Yeah
wish on stars: No
know how to whistle: No
gleek: Huh?
know how to impersonate: Yeah...I impersonate Luca all the time
have a secret ppl would be surprised to know: Maybe
prefer the good or bad boy/girl: Good boy
wear shoes to bed: No
skip class/school: No
go to school dances: No
have a short attention span: Yeah
have ADD: No
wear eyeliner: No
blast ur music so hard that all u can hear is the music: No
sleep with music on: No
think tyra banks is hot: Who?
like college or professional sports better: Neither
have any regrets: No
LAST PERSON WHO...
haunted u: No one
u wanted to kill: No one
u laughed at: Dunno
u went shopping with: My mom
broke ur heart: No one
disappointed u: Amanda
made u cry: Kathryn
brightened ur day: Luca! lol!
u thought about: Luca
u saw a movie with: My mom
u talked to on the phone: My mom
u talked to on IM: Kathryn
u saw: My brother
u lost: Dunno
u thought was insane: Dunno
u told off: No one
u trusted: My mom
u turned down: Dunno
said HI to u: My mom
tell u i love u: My mom
kissed u: Dunno
hugged u: My mom
tell u BYE: Dunno
wrote u a note: Caitlin
take ur photo: My mom
call ur cell phone: Dunno
bought u something: My mom
sang to u: Dunno
wrote a poem for u: Dunno
text messaged u: No one
touched u: My mom
sent u an email: Dunno
u talked to: My brother
and u said what?: Talking about how annoying he was playing on the piano
MYSPACE
do u keep ur blogs updated: Not on Myspace
do u even know what a blog is: Yeah
do u change ur blog page colors frequently: No
do u have music playing on ur blog page: Yeah
do u like to read other ppls blogs: Yeah
do u ever spill ur emotions through a blog: Sometimes
do u go emoticon crazy in ur blog: No
do accept all friend requests: Yeah
who do u have blocked: No one
do u get mad when u see u have new comments but then its nothing: No
do u load up ur comments with HTML: No
d0o YoUr cOmMeNtS lOOoK LiKEeeE DiS: Heck no
do u have the falling objects: No
what does ur contact box look like: Like a contact box? lol
do u ever put "married" cuz ur madly in love but ur not married: No
do u ever put "divorced" cuz u broke up with someone: No
do u add captions like "im so ugly" even tho ur not: No
do u know anyone in a band on myspace: I think so
do u have any pics that are so old, they dont look like u anymore: No
RANDOMS
# of regrets: None
whats ur ultimate job: Swordmaster
country u want to visit: Italy
how do u want to die: Peacefully
how do u sleep: Lightly
how many detentions have u had: None
are u a health freak: No
last book u read: New Spring
afraid of clowns: Yeah
how are u gonna celebrate turning 21: Dunno
brand of ur computer: Compaq
how many pairs of shoes do u own: Lots
last thought before falling asleep: Depends
how often do u go to the movies: Lots
last movie u saw at the theatre: Harry Potter 4
# of times uve had the hiccups: Lots
what annoys u the most: Preps
how many cousins do u have: Lots
if u were a bird, what would u be: Heron
how many kids do u want: None
if u could change ur name what would it be: Morgan
would u marry outside ur religion: Yeah
how many ppl were at ur last party: Dunno
if there was a movie made about ur life, what would it be called: Heather's life
whats ur biggest fear: Death
if u were someone else, would u be friends with u: Yeah
are u a daredevil: No
are u passive or aggressive: Passive
how do u vent: Listening to music
whats the most important lesson uve learned from life: Never give up
what fictional character are u most like: Erik
would u ever call off ur wedding: Depends
would u deliver a baby: No
if u could go on vacation right now, where would u go: Italy
why: Quis?
where is ur favorite place on earth: Dunno
why do cats meow: Luca told them to
what wakes u up in the morning: My dad on school days
what would be the perfect job for u: Swordmaster
what makes u cry: Depression
something u dont understand: Why people wear make up
something u cant do: Hard math
how many stories does ur house have: 2
how long does it take u to get ready for school: 10 minutes
how long does it take u to take a shower: 10 minutes
how long does it take u to get ready to go out: Like a minute
song that brings back bad memories: None
song that brings back great memories: Lots
how many cars does ur family have: Lots
whos ur weirdest neighbour/why: Dunno
what color are the walls in ur bedroom: White
what color is the carpet in ur bedroom: Blue
what are ur thoughts on the president: Ok
is the hokey pokey really what its all about: No but Luca is..
whatcha gonna do with all that junk, all that junk inside ur trunk: Give it to Luca
is highschool full of drama: Yeah
are u a part of it: No
did u like michael jackson before he became a freak: No
what was the highest u scored when u went bowling: Dunno
ur ringtone on ur cell is: Something lively
what celebrity do u look up to most: Luca Turilli
if u had one wish what would it be: More wishes
if u could marry anyone u wanted to who would it be: Nick
what is ur favorite thing to do: Go online
who are u with right now: Guardiani
are u selfish and greedy: No
how do u feel about being single: Fine lol
if u could live anywhere where would u live: Italy
would u move to another country: Yeah
last thing u thought before u fell asleep last night: Dunno
first thing u thought when u woke up this morning: Ahhh bad dream!
last time u had a party: Dunno
had a sleepover: 2 or 3 weeks ago
were sick: Dunno
threw up: Few months ago
made fun of someone: Dunno
TEN SONGS U LOVE
1: Battlefield-Blind Guardian
2: Guardiani-Rhapsody
3: Queen of the Dark Horizons-Rhapsody
4: March of Mephisto-Kamelot
5: Wizards in Winter-Trans-Siberian Orchestra
6: O Fortuna-Carl Orff
7: Swords in the Wind-Manowar
8: Zaephyr Skies’ Theme-Luca Turilli
9: Princess Aurora-Luca Turilli
10: Steel Meets Steel-HammerFall
NINE THINGS THAT MAKE U SMILE
1: Music
2: Luca Turilli
3: Italian accents
4: Epic battle movies
5: Honorable things
6: Friends
7: Family
8: Funny things
9: Traveling
EIGHT THINGS U WEAR DAILY
1: Pants
2: Shirt
3: Bra
4: Underwear
5: Sweatshirt
6: Socks
7: Italy bracelet
8: Watch
SEVEN THINGS THAT ANNOY U
1: Preps
2: Ignorance
3: Close-minded people
4: Make up
5: Rap music
6: Country music
7: Being treated like a baby
SIX THINGS UR LOOKING FORWARD TO
1: Seeing the Trans-Siberian Orchestra in concert!!!
2: Christmas break
3: Christmas
4: Going to France, Spain, and Italy next summer
5: Learning more Latin
6: Talking to Kathryn
FIVE THINGS UR AFRAID OF
1: Spiders
2: Death
3: Getting a disease/cancer
4: The dark
5: Getting poisoned
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT...
are u going out: No
will it be with ur significant other: No
or with some random person: No
what are u wearing right now: Blue pants, Florida shirt
what body part are u touching right now: None
what are u worried about right now: Nothing
what book are u reading: New Spring
whats on ur mousepad: Clouds
use 5 words to describe how ur feeling: Weird, ok, happy, content, odd
are u bored: No
are u tired: No
are u talking to anyone online: No
are u talking to anyone on the phone: No
are u lonely or content: Content
are u listening to music: Yeah
what are u listening to: "Battlefield"-Blind Guardian
what does ur hair look like: Down
describe ur general appearance: Shiny
FINISH IT
if i were a: Italian, I'd freak out
i wish: I could go to Italy
so many ppl dont know that: I'm autistic
i am: Obsessed
my heart is: In love
government: Is ok
george w. bush: Ok
reason?: Luca?
prostitutes: Bad
female singers (britney spears, christina aguilera, lindsey lohan etc..): Ew
boy bands: Ew
britney spears: Ew
school: Cool
jewish: Star
wood: Tree
death: Life
tequila: Ew
vodka: Ew
hope: Yay
glass: Window
jesus: Cross
beauty: This part of Battlefield...
maggot: Ew
picture perfect: Luca Turilli
geometry: Get it away from me
spoon: Steel
sharpie: Amusing
SOME LOVE TRUE & FALSE:
u love someone: True
that someone has brown hair: True
that someone has blonde hair: False
that someone has red hair: F
that someone has black hair: F
that someone has dyed hair: F
that someone had brown eyes: T
that someone has green eyes: F
that someone has blue eyes: F
that someone has other eyes: F
that someone plays a sport: F
if T, what sport:
SIMPLE T&F
u like school: True
u support george w. bush: T
u have seen a broadway play: False
u wear make-up: F
u love halloween: T
u can do a backflip: F
u can do an arial: Huh?
u can do a butterfly: Huh?
ur a bookworm: T
ur a teachers pet: T
ur a know-it-all: F
ur modest: T
ur loud: F
u can ice skate: T
u can rollarblade: T
THATS ALL
was this a great survey or what: Oh yes


"Mementos of summer retrieves your mind like a drizzle afternoon cleans the air"--"Memento Mori," Kamelot