What the...?

My subconscious was definitely weird last night...I was in this place where you go to try out for music. I was gonna sing POTO, and was very nervous. The person ahead of me was singing really high notes. Then I was in some underground place with lotsa ladders and rust and I was lost. Then this voice said "sing for me, and I'll help you find yor way out" and it repeated "sing for me" over and over. I think I sang something but don't remember what. Then I came to this wall and said "this is the wall to someone's bedroom!" and broke through it (I know exactly where that came from...Timeline lol). The person was very surprised and I don't remember anything else

Wow everything today has reminded me of POTO. My Spanish teacher said "we're gonna listen to the music of...*pause*" and I said "the night?" and then she finished with Ricky Martin and I was like darn (not that his music is bad or anything...). And my IPC teacher kept saying "combined." IT COMES OUT TOMORROW!!!! OMG!!!! *eats self*

And yesterday I realized one of my worst fears is being busy. When Amanda was talking about how busy her mom was, I got this weird feeling...like desperation or scared or something. The same thing happened when my teacher was talking about how busy her weekend was. Now all I have to do is look at the word and I get the feeling. I *really* hate the feeling cause I get cold, nervous, I talk and ramble about things I normally don't or just think, I say "oh dear" over and over, and when the feeling is over I feel empty. So if anyone wants to talk about being busy, just say destiny instead of busy (yes, yes, I know I don't like the word, but it was the 1st thing I thought of when talking to Kathryn).

Shamed into solitude, shunned by the multitude. I learned to listen, in the dark my heart heard music"--From POTO (No one would listen)