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[glacier_kitty]

Oh my..I know I already updated but I HAVE to write again. The medication change has finally caught up to me. I feel that "shocking" feeling like when I stopped Paxil last time. Well..dad recently bought a 65 inch TV (Ryan wanted a big one I guess?) and I HATE it. It's unnecessary and it gives me a headache every time I watch it. Ryan watches this awful show The Wire and I can't stand it..dad was all yelling at me telling me to go in another room. Ok..be exiled and alone away from everyone, thanks. And on Saturday dad was gone for hours..when he came back he said he had cleaned my apartment..he was like "you have too many books! You need to stop buying so many or get rid of them or buy new bookshelves!" Ummm..yeah I have a lot of books..and they're in different places in my apartment..but so what? I LIKE my books and having a place full of books (I've seen other people's houses look way worse than mine with all their books!). So that really irked me. Then he was like "I sorted through clothes on the floor, you need to get rid of so much stuff!" Ok I'll admit I needed to clean and sort through stuff..but I didn't want dad to do it for me! Sorry if this makes me sound ungrateful or something..but I feel like it's an invasion of my space. Well..today when I went home I saw what he had done. Things stacked in neat piles, clothes he found in piles I apparently should get rid of, things in totally different places..I don't mind if he comes over and vacuums or something..but THIS is too much. Yeah I had a lot of books stacked in the slot in my desk..but I WANT them there, not in a pile on the floor. He was looking at the shirts in my closet like "do you wear any of these? How long does it take you to get through them??" Ummmm..why do you care??? He asked me if I was gonna keep it this way (um no) and I said "I dunno.." and he was like "well if not I'll just have to come over and clean it again!" Ummm..NO. WTF. IT'S MY APARTMENT, NOT YOURS. You can obsessively clean at your house but not at MY apartment. I am not going to keep MY SPACE up to your crazy obsessive standards. If he doesn't like it..then he doesn't have to come in! When he left I just started BAWLING. Ugh. I hope the medicine thing levels out soon..

Sorry about the crazy negativity and possible ungratefulness..but I just had to let it out. :/ I hope you don't think too bad of me..

Comments

[foxydanish.livejournal.com]

WHOA I can absolutely understand how frustrating that must be!! Like you said, your apartment is YOUR space, YOUR territory, and not your dad's... He doesn't really have the right to go to your place uninvited and start organizing through all your things without your consent. You're an adult and that's overstepping a boundary.

**HUGS** I hope you feel better soon... And I definitely DO NOT think badly of you. I think your reaction is COMPLETELY understandable and not out of line at all!! I don't think this is showing ungratefulness, I think this is just a healthy way of you venting out your anger and frustration!

Okay, okay, I actually do like The Wire though... ;) Lol. But I think you already knew that Ryan and I have similar tastes in TV shows haha. HOWEVER... That was kinda mean of your dad to tell you to go into another room though. :/ Jeez!! I hope you have a better night, or at least a better day tomorrow. *MORE HUGS*

[websofsilk.livejournal.com]

No, you are completely right! What are you, almost 24 years old, right? Your dad can't tell you what to do with your own apartment! And coming over and organizing it without you even KNOWING about it? That would piss me off big time! It pisses me off now and I'm not even the one it happened to. I don't care if your apartment's a pig sty, the only people who can tell you to clean it are your landlords, and then only if it's a health hazard or something. No one can tell you what possessions you "need" to get rid of either. That's just wrong and a violation of privacy and boundaries, and even if the medication had nothing to do with it, you'd be perfectly justified in feeling a bit insulted/violated.  I'm sure he didn't really mean any harm, but it still isn't okay.

[mbif.livejournal.com]

It doesn't sound ungrateful at all! It's your stuff and he needs to respect your space. :-/

[cmayumit.livejournal.com]

I don't think you seem ungrateful at all. It's your place, not his, and it also makes it not his place to tell you how to live, worse even if he simply does it without your permission. :/ I'm sorry, sweetie. That's really invasive, and you're right for feeling frustrated. I don't think badly of you at all.

[heartlines.livejournal.com]

I don't think badly of you at all! You aren't being ungrateful either - like you said that's your apartment, your space and even your dad doesn't have the right to just go ahead and go through your things. That's not okay.
Sorry to hear he sent you to another room too :( *hugs* you can come watch TV with me, I have a nice small one :)

[sweetmeow]

I am probably OLDER than your parents (just guessing) and there is no way I'd go in and "arrange" my adult child's apartment. The only reason to ever get involved in someone else's place would be if it was one of those awful hoarding situations. And -- if I had my choice - I'd like my adult child to be surrounded by books. Says something really good about him/her!