Field trip...*stares at the field*

Today was our first field trip in child development. Caitlin was very grouchy at me and it made me wanna cry. She's clinically depressed and didn't take her medicine so maybe that's why. Anyway, we went to Cici's for lunch then went to the school place. Only 4 and 5 year olds go there so everything is small just for them and it was amusing. Everyone went in groups of 3 or 4 to different classrooms...I went to the bilingual one where Spanish is everyone's first language. I understood lotsa things they said but was too embarassed to say much in Spanish. Some of them understood lotsa English. I got to read like 3 books to them. One boy was really friendly and spoke to me in Spanish while I was reading and he made lotsa hand guestures so I could kinda understand what he was saying. And I absolutely did not talk to them like babies and they liked it just fine. Then they drew in their journals and I helped someone write his name (which was Erick). Then we had to go. *tear* They were sad to see us go. Good thing we're going back again

I feel like everyone is mad at me and I can't do anything right anymore. Kathryn hardly talked to me at all yesterday and when she did she was like 'lol' or 'ooo'...Amanda seems mad at me no matter what I do...Caitlin shoulda taken her medicine but still...I was waiting for her and she was like 'you don't have to wait for me' and I did it again and she said 'don't wait for me!! We've been through this...stop following me!!!' Then at the school place we had partners and she's like 'you're my partner Heather!!' and I'm like 'make up your mind!' I didn't talk to her the rest of the time which was probably a bad idea. I'm not very good at friendships am I?

I'm making a 90 in chemistry...in chemistry!!

"Still on my own, chasing the sun of a time long ago. The shade in my heart, tearing apart everything that I long for"--"The Fallen One," HammerFall